Though I rely heavily on time and random
chances for scourgers to leave me, I’m learning some effective tricks I can use
to expel them at the same moment they are coming closer. It’s not about spells
as that requires a control of my mind beyond my current condition. No, it’s
more like simply using the resources around me to distract me from the
annoyance or pain.
The problem is that my goal is to have trances,
and for that crests help me a lot. Spy crests, for instance are highly
effective. But sometimes they’re taken
with poignancy or lead forces (specially those spy crests). Anti-lead and anti
poignancy strategies are really complicated, and it’s a terrible blow when
something I’m expecting to help me turns out leadsome or poignant.
So there are some stages to defeating them
(though always temporarily, sigh). To avoid getting to crests while they’re
still poisonous, I have to clean them. I think I’ll call the first part of the
process Shutdown. It’s clearly analogous to a computer with a crashing screen,
being set on reset. I don’t know how exactly I can do that, but usually it’s a
vestian effort, by canceling the usual neurotic exigencies that make me feel
damaged in confront with reality. Defeating some Zhàn scourgers with the axiom
of patience is often a working formula.
And once I can at least bring my emotions to
zeta zone, I just need to find the arrow crests. That is, the strange effect
that one crest can usually be the exact one my soul is calling for. It isn’t
always the same. It isn’t always amber or peridot or lazulite or even
silver/copper (which is how I refer to studying history and is the most
poignant-free crests I have). Amethysts are easily hiding poignant elements so
this spy crest shouldn’t be trusted. But if the gamma is starting to increase,
I have higher chances of having these spy crests cleansed of venin presence,
and I can safely use spy crests to boost my way to trances.
When, or if, I get to find the arrow crest,
then from that neutral place or early gamma stage it’s much easier to settle
for a high gamma inspiration and think straight again and reach those
delightful trances. In fact, when this strategy works it’s amazing I was
feeling so miserable and hopeless one hour ago and I’m feeling so amazing now.
It changes my mood in such a magical way that it makes me question the nature
of my own feelings for them to be maneuvered like this.
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