Trances and moments when I can feel all the great inspiration when I even try some more advanced techniques like the Needlework aren't being sufficient to maintain this place. Hell, even my compromise to post texts on a monthly basis isn't working anymore. Worse, I don't like how it goes without worries.
Fortunately, not all news are bad. First, I'm feeling like I'm recovering some social skills somehow I lost. And though trances are at a shortage, I feel that's one of my main powers I feel I am slowly coming to possess again. I've been having the nice feelings of sensing a pattern, creating ideas and names. That's something I just didn't feel in, say, June. I've even had some two or three sweet ideas this month, and that makes me happy.
So with that, I close with a beacon of hope. And I'll need it for my mission to recover what I've lost. Until the end of the year, I'll reclaim Ilium away from the claws of Hrungnir. That son of a bitch is wrecking my fucking year! And then I'll remaster the discipline I used to have and be as productive as I used to be, and that's final.