Some axioms seem to be very distant to me.
Maybe they are qualities I don’t really possess, but once I get to have them
experienced at least once, I feel they incredible importance. One of these
qualities is the curious and not entirely familiar feeling of trusting myself.
My confidence is very dependent on the feeling
of independence. I need to have the sensation that all that I need is me,
entirely present in my soul, and so with confidence I am able to be more
ambitious and daring, which is fundamental for trances (I hope this doesn’t get
fractalized into any axiom of ambition).
Confidence is also present with being
comfortable, which is the reason I am rarely confident when being along with
people, at least those unknown to me. Those social doubts usually are fought
with reason, which unfortunately isn’t one of my strongest axioms.
The motive why this is axiom is such a problem
to me is because it deals with my strangely powerful trauma of exposure. I’m
thoroughly ruled by insecurity, specially after these months and when Zhu Rong
got very strong and suddenly was stabbed in the back by the again all-powerful
Ushag.
