One of my main excuses for analyzing myself is
that events in my life are easily analogous to historical events, and that
skill becomes important outside this introspective place. It’s also one of the
reasons why the string studies feel so exciting to me, the way they can bear
similarities despite being in a different scale, or a different system
whatsoever.
For instance, one of things I am seeing in my
own life and that I am most sure it happens in history, is how events interact
to form a major change. It’s about these events in first braudelian level being
impacting enough, but at first being seemingly unimportant.
In my life, one little mistake I can make can
be chained to my insecurity that will make me question my own competence, which
can of course hinder my own confidence. This way, one seemingly innocuous error
can be just the beginning of every deep crisis I can enter in my life.
It’s strange, though, that one drop that can
start the chaos is much more frequent and much more powerful than those that
can actually make everything look alright. One of the most unfair arbitrary
rules of reality is how destruction is always much more expensive than
creation.
