This is a nice place to make a confession: I
love staring at the post counter I have in this blog. If I am feeling like I’ve
wasted my time this year, I can just come here and see the overabundance of
thoughts, the accumulation of words that make for a book already. So although I
can admit it makes me feel good, I must also say I am careful not to feel like
cheating just to look like doing something impressive.
I am not lying if I say at least ninety percent
of these texts have a purpose of existence. They are all honest attempts in
trying to understand myself. It’s just that when you think about a subject, and
it brings a new one and when you see it’s like this already, the suffocating
avalanche of vertices to be analyzed.
It could seem more aesthetically advisable to
write as fewer texts as possible, and it’s not even rare that I try mashing up
two overly similar ideas in one text, but it feels like luck that the way I’m
separating subjects for isolated inspection probably helps me in the whole
analysis I am doing, which makes another score for my Q. Wisdom.
The way I am dealing with it helps me focus and
only talk about the very subject. And it’s good that although isolated, they’re
all connected. If I am just able to make my Needlework more sophisticated, it
will look great. However, I can’t do that properly if there’s always more
vertices to analyze than I am able to even write about, let alone do the whole
leitmofing, chaining and networking.
