Watching the world and seeing and absorbing it
in its details is a vital part of this process of understanding this
psychological event I call the crests. And the most vital part of this
absorption is to pay attention to the emotional responses and how my mind is
reacting to it all. I think that’s a skill that grows with time, so maybe for
now I’m still very rough in it…
It seems I can feel the crests in small samples
of what the gems represent, like feldspar, dunite or the chrysogems. For
instance, a light shadow, or a small squirrel, a little rock, house, or a small
amount of open air (like a balcony outdoors surrounded by buildings – that being
isolated from direct sunlight during most of the day makes it feel slightly wet
and cold). This way, even those
apparently crestless details of the world have their gems too.
These low magnitude things require some
microtasting skills or something like that. It also has to do with something
similar to Balrog’s Bawl, as I could try feeling this low radiation of crests,
and intensify the feeling so it will increase and I can imagine a thicker
dunite (like shadows of clouds imagined to be a sky-darkening storm), or then
seeing this kitten and imagining a tiger.
When I think about it, I find that I might be
unraveling more than I expected to, because now I feel I understanding a little
better how dreams can work. Apparently, having those radiation valves gone mad
(which can happen with the unconscious mind being set free, be it through
dreams and imagination, or dementia and trauma), the level of radiation we
experienced earlier isn’t registered. Instead of a tiny animal, we can dream of
beasts instead of our pets inside our house, or then another kind of monster
instead of a fatherly figure…
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