Some sylvan quintessences can avoid my taming
attempts for years on end. There’s this one in special that wanders from the
corners of my mind just when I have enough sensibility of trances for its
presence to feel faintly shaped. It’s something about life presenting us events
and choices with consequences so extraordinarily more ambiversive than we can
normally grasp.
One of these questions that I stumble upon
frequently and that seems slightly related to this ambivalence is the presence
of several needs I feel my heart expressing. To follow my heart means getting
to extremes that can be too imprudent and dangerous, while at the same time,
ignoring it can be interpreted as fright and cowardice. There’s a conflict in
here while I feel my heart shouting exigencies. There are things it wants me to
do, and I don’t think I want them. But how do I know that silencing them is a
wise thing to do, or if I am just being coward?
The whole problem revolves around the fact it
is impossible to understand every detail of their nature and consequences. I
have no idea to how I can possibly know whether I answer to or silence these
urges, after all, I know I am not looking at all the vertices that surround it.
I don’t know all the positive and negative feedbacks that the choice would bring.
